What to do when you feel utterly demotivated and powerless in a situation? Totally ambivalent to life and lacking the drive to get up and do something about it?
Sit and create problems and diversions for an entire life. Build so much drama into your life, spending collosal mental energy travelling along an emotional rollercoaster, your real problems never have to be tackled. Avoidance tactics are implemented to dodge the real issues and the real work. I’ve been doing this for a long time, decades in fact. Personally I’ve mainly used video games, bad relationship management and drinking to avoid fighting resistance (As Steven Pressfield would call it). Resistance is real, it has a face, it is there to beat you down, using any tactic, fair or foul, to prevent you from doing the work and becoming a better version of yourself. Resistance will do what it can to prevent me doing what I have been put here to do, it will never surrender and must be beaten on a daily basis.
The other approach is to drop your defences, to accept fear of failure and loss of that short-term hit from some of the easy shit we have on tap (video games, porn, chocolate, movies, food, drinking, shallow socialising, tattoos, vicarious goal achievement etc). Dopamine, serotonin, oxytocin and endorphins are the quartet responsible for our happiness, yet also our misery. They can be gained fairly easily using the above readily available sources, or through longer-term, delayed gratification and worthy goal achievement. Guess which one really matters?
I realise that my first challenge is to drop my addiction to short-term pleasures and start creating real long-term goals with clear outcomes.
Understand my own short-term ‘hits’ and remove them from my life. (Let’s go cold turkey on this, I feel up to it).
Set some long-term clear goals for my own life.